How Can I Not Love Him?

My Dearest Clemens

Many people says that I love Damir more than you which is actually not true. I love both of you equally but because of different expectations, the kind of love is also expressed differently. Because you are my eldest son, my expectation of you seems to naturally more in terms of everything. I actually wanted more for you.

Although we can argue and have our differences many a times, you are almost every bit like me. Looking at you now is just like me looking into the mirror. Even the time I was young, you have those traits too. Seriously deep down in my heart, I know I love you very very much.

I know when you were at Kindy, I will do a mini celeberation for you at school but decided to stop this year because I wish for you to learn that things do not come easy. I love how you took it in your stride though I know you were disappointed. I love how sensible you are when I told you that I can’t celeberate it for you on this actual day itself and that I won’t be getting you a cake.

I realised how sensible, thoughtful and considerate you are when all I got for you is a ………..

Kinder Surpise

Which already brought smiles to your face. 🙂

I am just can’t express how glad I am that you-this fine young man is my son.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING ELDEST SON

For now, I wish that god will keep you in the palm of his hands to love and protect you always.

Love and Full of Kisses Always,

Your Mummy.

Updates

In The End, I Still Bought Him A Cake

A Belated Celeberation For Him At The Line. 🙂

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An Intimate Shopping Trip

If you have followed me, you will realised that I have been having a weight issue. And also because I have given birth twice and neglected myself, I also have the problem of sagging skin hence I have decided to take the advice of my mum and many close friends to wear the waist clincher dilegently in order to “keep the skin back”. But it was really difficut to find one that was affordable and comfortable that I can manage fuss free and something I know that I can keep wearing it and not chuck it aside (if you get wad I mean).

Anyway I happen to step into Chaloné today and I found this (or should I say the helpful lady assistant recomended it to me:

SKYLA Waist Clincher (1082) in Nude & Black

One look at it, I kinda of knew that was exactly I was look for.

$89.90 per piece with a $20 discount if you get 2 pieces

It has 2 buckle strips at the front with a front zip. This was just so easy without having me to fret about how i am going to mange those with the buckles at the back. The only catch is you seriously have to suck in your tummy as best as you can to prevent from zipping up your own skin. Once you pass that, everything is just perfect.

2 pieces of buckle strips with the zip all settled at the front. So easy

I did not even want to remove it and ask the lady to cut away the tag instead after  which I continue walking down the roads of orchard for a good 3-4 hours. No sweat, the material is breatheable and even my ongoing backache problem seems to have ease off as it corrects my posture and pulls everything together.

I am really lazy to take my measurement but the lady had mentioned that if I put it on diligently on a daily basis, most proberly in 6 months time I will be able to switch these down 2 sizes smaller. Hope that works.

For those also looking for something like that, below is the adress where I got it from though I realised there are other outlets as well.

And just I head home, my mummy called me and told me excitedly that the slimming & firming girdle that I wanted was going really cheap at Deal.com.sg. And it is seriously cheap compared to the ones that I saw at the malls.

So yup I ordered 2 pieces of it and am now waiting for the reply and delivery.

It is indeed an intimate shopping spree today. 🙂

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The Fathers These Days

**Updates: Managed to snap a photo of the 2 fathers of my life sharing  frozen cheese cake 🙂 Sweet………..

Clemens Behind, Damir Infront

This is a really old and raw photo which is not the nicest photo the boys have with dad. But it is my FAVOURITE because it kinda of portrays the dad these days where they can muti task, almost as well as the woman. Wash, change diapers and handling more than 1 kid………, you name it and most of them can do it though my hubby can’t cook.

It also potrays the close bonding between fathers and kids.

And how can I forget my own father-the traditional one (stern and no nonsesnse dad who dosen’t care about what is going on ih the household as long as he brings back the $$) who has mellowed with the tide to try to be like dad these days though he still doesn’t like to do the ‘girly’ suff but he sure look after my kids well (no problem with changing daipers too) and absoultely dotes on them. 🙂

Dad with my Kiddos and Mum 🙂

 HAPPY FATHER’S DAY TO ALL THE WONDERFUL DAD OUT THERE!!!!!

The 2 Greatest Daddies of My Life 🙂

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A Challenge For Myself

My heart feels funny, I am sweating alot more than I should (not sure if it is the weather though)  and I have been feeling seriousy easily tired.  I also seriously cannot imagine that since September 2011, I have gained a WHOOPING…… 7KG!! Mind you that is alot and standing at 152cm, I am totally flabbagested to see my weighing scale shoot up to 72.5kg. Toally disgusting isn’t it???

And it does not help with the fact that when I am studying at home, I can actually down 1 pint of ice-cream and finish a whole bag of chips (or perhaps even more).

Looking at my past photos, I seriously wonder what have I done to myself? Why am I not looking after myself at all?

Me@2006 (After Birth of Clemens)

Me@2007 (After Birth of Damir)

Me@Oct 2011

Me Now Over 70+kg 😦

Looking at the progression of the photos, I am so TOTALLY UNIMPRESS!!!

Hence I will like to challenge myself to a 365 days of healthy living in aim of loosing at least 10kg . I realised I did it half way from March to July 2011 (last year). So I hope I can perserve longer this time round.

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The Vocabulary List

As promised to my boys , I booked the 3D tickets to watch Madagascar 3- Europe’s Most Wanted with my boys today since I was on leave. We really had a fun filled day shopping, eating and catching up. One of the most erm…. interesting talk of the day with my boys was during our lunch at McDonalds.

  • Clemens: (opening up his cup of corn) Mummy!!! Look at my BASTARD corn!!!!!!!
  • Me: (Toally shocked) What did you just say?!!!!!!
  • Clemens: BASTARD corn mum………
  • Me: Do you know that is 1 of the worst “B” word you can ever use on someone? Do you even know what it means?
  • Clemens: Oh really………… then mummy can you please tell me what it means so I won’t use it again.
  • Me:  Do you know when someone calls you a bastard, it means you do not have a daddy with you? It is relly hurting.
  • Clemens: (with the most unassuming and innocent expression) But I am right what mum, daddy is not out with us today so we are bastards.
  • Damir: (Wide-eye innocence) So mummy, we are bastards??????
  • Me: (Stone, stune, shock) That is not how it goes or means……… (-_-“). It means when a boy and a girl do not get married and they have a baby.
  • Clemens:Why they don’t get married???

I was really runnning out of innovative ideas to explain to him. Thinking really hard on how to explain the ‘illegitimate child’  I decided to touch a little bits of the birds and bees, after much struggle. So……….

  • Me: Erm….. you see daddy and mummy sleep together because we are married. If a boy and girl sleep together not married and have a baby, the baby is called a bastard. So if someone calls you bastard it is not right because your daddy and mummy is married. And I don’t want you to use it on other people because you might not always know the truth. Do you understand me?
  • Clemens: Ok I understand now, I will not use the worst “B” word again.

Phew……… and just as I thought all was finally over………..

  • Clemens: Mummy, can you please tell me what is FUCK???????
  • Me: (Oh god not again, I really do not know how to explain this) Clemens, mummy really do not know how to tell you but it is the worst “F” word around. Let it be our secret word and I will tell you when you are 10 years old. Just promise me you won’t say it out for now. (yup you can see I am buying time for now)
  • Clemens: Alrighty mum………….

and then………………

  • Damir: Mummy is STUPID a bad word?
  • Me: (really exhausted from racking my brain cells to explain) Not really Damir but it is not nice to use it on people. It is mean.
  • Damir: But daddy is always scolding us stupid……….

Daddy are you reading this NOW??????

And mind you that we were having this dicussion in a public place where I have eyes from the next table glancing over occassionally and I was just trying to look so cool about it like, “What’s the big deal?”. It is the kind of moment where you wish that the floor will just open up so that you have a place a hide.

So… today I learnt that is my boys’ list of expletives vocabulary. Am I worried? Well I am a half here and half there meaning, I need to be more aware of my boys surroundings, and I am glad that they are asking me so I know 1st hand of what is going on around them. Because of this and with our open communication (instead of shutting them up) I was also able to know where they get this “rich” list from.

Anyway, the day was really good, with the boys and I seriously enjoying the movie, laughing our lungs out. Kids or adults looking for a funny movie should not miss this at all.

And because it included shopping and eating, here are the damages:

Popcorn & Movie

While Waiting For their Food

The Boys’ High Tea @ Canele 🙂

Shoppings~ All Theirs

All the Cuties

Clemens 🙂

Damir 🙂

Dinner Ended with Their Cousin-Girlee

I seriously have had a wonderful day though my hubby feels that I should go back to work. But anyway the boys feel that I should be at home with them. 🙂

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